A Bittersweet Day

Today was a bittersweet day for me. I took Katelynn to register her for Kindergarten. I can't believe she is old enough to start school in the fall! She was so excited to see where she will go to school and now can't wait to go to the "Big School".

Another reason it was a bittersweet day is because a year ago today was the last time I saw my mother alive. On March 27th it will be a year since she passed through the veil into the spirit world. I've been thinking a lot of her lately and how grateful I am to be her daughter. She was and is a wonderful mother who showed her children and grandchildren great love.
This past year Katelynn has made some humorous and wise comments about my mother and the changes that have occurred in our lives. I'd like to share these with anyone who cares to read further.

When my mother first died, Katelynn cried often. When she saw me cry she would put her arms around me, kiss me and say; "I'm sorry Mama died". Her love and comfort has really been a blessing to me.

This past summer she went for a drive with my dad and my two nieces. When she was dropped off at our house she turned to me and referring to the car my dad was driving, which my mother used to drive; "That's not Grandpa's car, that's Mama's car!"

Before Thanksgiving I went by to visit my mother's grave. Katelynn later told my sisters; "Maimee talked to Mama in the grass and she cried."

When we were going through my mother's things and stacking her clothes to be taken to Deseret Industries she got very upset. She asked my sister Bonnie what we were doing with Mama's clothes. Bonnie replied that Grandpa had asked us to take them out of the house and to talk to him about it. She immediately went to my dad and demanded to know why he was making us get rid of Mama's clothes.

A few days before my dad got remarried I told her what was going to happen. She thought about it for a few minutes and then said; "Grandpa can't marry Faye, he's married to Mama!"
She has also remarked several times about a picture of my parents at my wedding. She has told my dad that Mama is his Best Friend. She understands the connection between the two of them and doesn't want that to change.

Just a few weeks ago when she was getting out of the bath Katelynn started to cry. I asked her what was wrong and she told me she missed Mama and didn't want her to be dead anymore. I hugged her and comforted her as best I could. I distracted her with getting ready for bed and thought the matter over. In the morning she told me again she missed Mama. She then said; "I
want Faye to die and Mama to be alive again". I had to explain that wasn't possible and that it wasn't nice to wish anyone to die. Although I understood she just wants my mother back and things to go back to the way they were. A few minutes later she said; "I don't like Grandpa and Faye's house. I like Grandpa and Mama's house." She has noticed the change in the atmosphere at the house. I've reflected about the things she has said and realized how much more she comprehends than I thought she did. I'm very grateful she still has such a great love for my mother. I hope and pray I can continue to tell her stories and show her pictures to keep my mother's memory alive for her.